INVARIABLY (overshare)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

INVARIABLY (overshare)

every time i send an email to a writer i admire, or an editor, or someone whose zine i want to submit to or whatever, i begin by using capital letters, proper grammar, and variable sentence length/structure, but rapidly (d)evolve into using mostly i statements littered with overshare and run-ons. at the precise point where this happens i stop capitalizing i and sign my name in lowercase even though i capitalized the name of the person i was writing to, because i was sounding like a proper professional grownup 5 minutes/2 hours ago when i began the email. which i just learned today is like a Dom/sub thing which i learned from the Pervocracy, and i also learned about latex vacuum cubes—WHAT IF THEY DON’T LET YOU OUT and then i think about in the passionate mistakes and intimate corruption of one girl in america how michelle tea writes about the girl with the knife, how freaked out and turned on she is. is it fucked up that i like to read about kink but i’m pretty sure that i don’t want to do it, is that like an anthropologist complex, an i even allowed to be interested in it, is this part of my poetics of denial.longing/non-touch

also in my journal i wrote “serenity prayer” but it looked like “severity prayer” because in private i have extremely shitty handwriting i wanna think about what a severity prayer might be

and i also want someone to take pictures of me looking severe and possibly naked